January 27th, 2014
I Wish I Could Think Up A Cool Title
Published on January 27th, 2014 @ 09:42:36 pm , using 211 words, 2534 views
So this is my first post and my first outlet for my depression, I'm not really sure if I can call it a condition, but it's something that I have been pretty good at hiding especially from my parents for years now. There was another incident today with them, they are mainly the trigger for these incidents I have. Sometimes all I want to do is run my car through a wall, or just keep driving and never look back. Dont get me wrong my parents are good parents, I just wish I was a good enough daughter for them. Apparantly graduating early and getting a sholarship at a university just isn't enough for them. I dont call for two hours and it leads to a 12 hour lecture, which usually begins with me crying, but they don't budge, and it usually ends with my mom crying and making me feel like a terrible child for not doing anything wrong. I have mommy issues. The woman that brought me into this world seems to be the only one that can knock me down the hardest and I just dont know what to do from feeling so down with every element of my being. I need to try something different and so here I am...