Me

Today I quit my job because it was too much effort to go into work. I really hope I can get back on track...I am sure I can...I am 24 and still young and stupid...I've gotten on track again countless times before...I hope I can again. For as long as I can remember, I have had these "phases"... I shut myself away, I am lethargic/sad, I eat eat eat, my personal hygiene goes down the drain. From the outside, I am popular, intelligent, ambitious...that is why I can't let the outside world see me when I am lonely, stupid, without motivation. I want to be someone my younger brothers are proud of. I want to be someone I am proud of. But it is very attractive to me to be in one of my "phases"...it is safe, I don't have to try, I can just "be"...it's dangerous.