Edge of a cliff...
Well, I've had to move back home and in with the parents and I feel stupid because all my friends are doing it, I've never been good at anything I've ever done and feel like there's no reason for me to be here, I just go through life feeling numb, thinking of ways to end it all.
My best friend's brother killed himself on the 17th as it was my best friend's birthday. I have my uncles funeral to go to this week, I'm tired of being here and trying to fight to be here when there's an easier way out. My parent's are both suicidal and I've followed yet again. Went to the doctors last week and she said she'd put me into theripy for it, I know I need to keep going, I'm a role model to my two girls (Cousins that I've brought up as their father was ill) plus if I did find my way out, my parents would be burdened with another death and they'd both kill themselves, especially my father as we were his only blood related kids.
I don't even know a word to describe what I'm feeling any more except numb, like there's only one way out, I'm trying to keep my head held high and concentrate on my future but unfortunatly it looks bleak.