Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

Went to have my hair done today, it felt so good to be pampered, then went round to see my newsagent friend, with a cake I baked yesterday, thought it would be funny, but now, not so sure, I just think I made a fool of myself.....Grrrrrrr!

After that , went for my usual walk by the seaside, came home starving, so made some dinner. Ever sincr last week, when I tried on last year's summer pair of jeans, and I could not fit in them, Im avoiding chocolate, biscuits and chips. To be objective, some of the clothes I own, that do not fit anymore, were bought when I still had a Thiroid disorder, was too messedc up to buy food, and smoked like a chimney, aia was a bag of bones, and was floting in a size  the smallest size skinny jeans, If I did fit into those again, that would mean that I 'm becoming ill again, and I don't want that, still, my tummy needs toning a bit, must be realistic, I haven't got a bad figure for my age anyway....And there are other priorities, way more important, than chatting up newsagents and improving my figure.....the unsorted issues, the unopened mail, are still there, lurking in a corner....procracination, delusions, head in the sand, is it the way forward to recovery, or a reciepe for disaster?