Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

So long for trying to be all active and efficient!  Woke up in the morning with a migraine from hell, head throbbing, feeling like throwing up, and no tablets left indoors, attempted to have a cup of coffee, (not a good idea) and retreated back in bed until afternoon, cursing myself for being such a whimp.

Onc showered and dressed, looking  a bit more human, went outside, bought a box of Neurofren, aimlessly from one shop to another, waved at the newsagent, but could not be bothered to go in, as I did not really feel in the mood to entertain. 

I somehow managed to purchase one apple corer, so now , if I ever attempt to make a tart again, the apple slices will be all even, and two vests, the kind that hide all the wobbly bits, one white, one black. I normally take ages to decide whether or  not to buy something, even the smallest and most trivial item, comparing prices, debating on whether I will use it a lot......incabable of making any snap decision, so I am amazed at how bold and quick I was to purchase thes items, perhaps because I was nt feeling well, so I was letting my guard down, distracted by the headache .

Having eaten nothing since the day before i was weak and light headed, so I walked into a little Chinese cafe, and had a dish of noodles and a pot of green tea, there again, a curious thing,I was feeling too poorly to actually feel guilty for lavishing time and money on myself, the food and the tea did wonders, and I felt rather peaceful, and warmed up by the cheerful table lay out, for, when I am not down in the dumps with anxiety, I very good at noticing these small little details of life, like pretty flowers or cool table napkins, I believe details are important, the final touches that make you feel cosy and homely....Bliss...

Could it be I 'm getting better? I just had a really lazy day, and I am not beating myself uop for it.....wow!.....what next?....