Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

Thursday 8:30 am, I'm currently feeling my usual self after returning from my seven night shifts at sea, groggy from a 24hours sleep binge, when I went to bed as soon as I stepped indoors, got up mid afternoon to have a light snack and check my e mails, and returned to bed untill early this morning! I 'm wondering if this is a really healthy thing to do, or would I be better off forcing myself to stay awake, to avoid guilt adding to tiredness. The thing is , I enjoyed the last 24 hours, I relished in that groggy feeling, that foggy drowsiness, it takes the edge of everyday anxiety,pleasantly blurs the contours of reality . I loved being cocooned at home, in cosy darkness, with only the glow of the laptop to make the room alive, I loved being curled up in the middle of the bed, not near the edge, in the middle, out of reach, out of sight, I loved being alone and not having to make any effort to be pleasant with anybody at all. I was in a state of total regression and felt stargely calm and collected, as in detached from reality, watching my life from the outside. Now, daylight is staring at me in the face, trying to force me out of my cocoon, but I feel reluctant. I will soon have to snap out of it though! I have to get ready for tomorrow! I 'm now on a three weeks annual leave , so tomorrow, I will be on the train to my Parent's house( abroad), I 'm hoping this vacation will help me get back on track, put things into perspective................. heal my broken soul.