Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

Arrived home two days ago, can not believe I made it, considering how tired and exausted I felt before leaving, I gave myself on e day to prepare my suitcase, but ended up just shoving things randomly inside a travel bag, just minutes before departure, the night before, instead of getting things ready for departure, I gazed at the computer screen and had two large helpings of baileys, decided to set up the alarm for very early in the morning, as I was felt totally drained, woke up with a headache and really had to make a dash for that train, tyied to sleep in the train, but all I could manage was to stare into space, still, I made it!

I am therefore currently chilling out in my Parent's house, eating nice food, watching TV, relaxing, trying to get myself together; O f course, they do not know a thing,(at least, I don't think they do!) about the turmoil that is eating me up .

The very afternoon of my arrival, I got a fright, a missed call on my mobile, from an unknown caller, followeed by the usual freak out; but I had to stay composed, not to show my distress. 

Even when I go abroad; Anxiety seems to follow me, and try spoiling my enjoyment, but it won't succeed as I am very determined to have a good time against all odds.