Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

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• Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

• 30 something girl, struggling with Extreme Anxiety, the symptoms include:a Phobia of answering the phone, a phobia of opening mail,Paranoia, a permanent fear of hearing bad news. Although these do affect my everyday life, I try to keep my chin up, more or less sucessfully , but I struggle on, even managing on some occasions to make fun of my own condition. Cynism and sarcasm see me through,from dark despair, to bitter -sweet moods as I stumble through life, trying to find my way to a better place.
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Summer blues

07:47:14 am, by anne-peneloppe , 150 words  

Here we go again then, back home after 3 weeks away, I 'm working tomorrow, so will not really have a long time to reconnect  with my familiar mess and immerse myself into the dark world of unopened mail, dirty dishes loneliness and fear. Summer is here now, the sun is bright and hot, I should rejoyce, but it worries me as well, when the light is bright, I feel more exposed, there is no protective layer of darkness to to hide under, and the sunshine is casting a very unforgiving light on my derelct belongings, my cosy little cocoon of delusions is being torn open. Soon, every time I go for a walk, I will be comfronted with the sight of holidaymakers, happy families, and loved up couples , stolling hand in hand by the seasisde , and I will be even more painfully aware of my own loneliness.

Must try and get myself together. 

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Comment from: Mrs H [Member]

I'm sorry you're so blue, anne. Just try to remember that the sun does give you much needed Vitamin D. So although those couples and families make you feel alone, please so try to remember that you are NOT alone. You just spent all of that time with your family, right? No matter what... no will loves us like our parents. Love is out there for you, my friend. Just be open to receiving it.

Love and

16/06/10 @ 19:32

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