Where's the way out?.....are we there yet ?

So.........12 hours later , what's new? not much, efter that second cup of coffe, I did manage to complete one task: cleaning the fridge, I threw away any oyt of date products( mouldy jam, Yuck!), then wiped the inside with Dettol, that was a very unglamorous job indeed, but it had to be done, the sunshine  was tempting me out, so I gave in, put on some  old clothes, nothing fancy, just beach casual, with my bikini underneath.  I bought a drink and a sandwich, then went to lay down in the sand, I did put plenty of suncream, and I did not go when the sun was at it's hottest, so I guess it was , plus I needed some fresh air, I knew from experience that locking myself  indoors for a whole punishing day, trying to clear all that clutter was a reciepe for disaster. I had chosen a quiet part of the beach and was confident I would not bnp into anyone I knew as I exposed my white flesh and wobbly bits to the warm rays of sunshine. My figure is not what it was, and I do feel extremly self concious about it, my  weight has crept up since I gave up smoking six month ago, even thought most people still find me slim,I can see the difference, I used to be so thin I was floating in size 8 skinny jeans, now they feel just right, and yes, some days I o feel gross.

I stayed on the beach untill the sun went out, then walked home, had something to eat, watched a romantic comedy on tv, and wrote this, so Ok, I did not perform and achieve as much as I should have, but I do feel a lot more energetic, so it was not a total waste of a day after all. .....was it?