how do you correct your life style when you lose all interest in everything. Helping out others, being there for them, working hard at work when it still is not good enough and lose your job or friends, when others see that your heart is easy to mold under pressure and know your easy to brake down,that it's easy to strip holes into your humble heart. when becoming sick is a usually thing and not a once in a while thing. Things I use to want to success in have been torched by unfimiliar faces. Unknown faces come my way, a full book of tramatising tails already and continue to be added in. I tried to make it on my own, Ive tried to reach for the stars, always wanted to be honest and loveing. seems that life does not make sence in the order anymore. People, bad people try to cut me down, take me away from how i was lovingly raised, ive been abused in many unpleasant factors. I have screamed many times in someones home or else where-"let me go","dont do this","why me","I'll call for the police if you dont stop","cant you just kill me","I wish I was never born","nock me out so I wont remeber". A pretty face and having a soft heart dont mix! seems like Im a tool,a slave, or servant to people. I do that I can to have friends that will stand by me, love me,will talk to me. but in the end a beer in my had at the bar does no long numb the pain anymore. let alone going out does not help me. when Im alone im harrased and sometimes raped for walking alone. Pay checks Ive earned go bye bye when I try to give money to a person that wont leave me alone while im walking home. I had 45s put in my face if I didnt lay down or shut up. me working at work hard as I can for low wage gives me more pain because my bosses like to drain me till i hit the ground. I can go on and on, but there is no point
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