BeautifulDisaster

It is now the second day after packing up all of my things and leaving him. He has tried to contact me numerous of times but I haven;t answered. But why do I still miss him. And I know he is not good for me. I spent 6.5 years with him and he still doesn't know what he did wrong. I wrote him a letter to tell him how badly he hurts and yet he thinks it's only communication. There is so much more. I got so tired of him mistreating me, me crying and his abuse. Though it didn;t happen ever day but once you get so low you just dont know how to come out of it. I'm still crying but it is just day 2 .What am I going to do with myself? I'm going to try starting next week to study for entrance into the military to get my mind off of him. I miss him so much though. Am I wrong for wanting to be in his arms and have him kiss me. I know it's temporary but he is all I know. Stupid I know. I'm so sad.