Today has been a bad day for me. I woke up with my tooth hurting me so I didn't go to church. That is very disturbing. I feel that church helps me with finding inner peace. I try to live the christian way ( being a souldier for Jesus) and attend every Sunday. I also volunteer a lot.

But today was turning out bad. I also am sad because we are losing our income source next week with no future plans in store. I had an anxiety attack because our normal life is turning into a chaiotic life. I am trying to look on the bright side, but for me the bright side hasn't come yet to look over.

While I have been in treatment for my illness I am learning to cope with thinking positive, but it is breaking down fast. I am confused and irritated. I want to fix it and I can't. I feel like my life is going to hell in a handbasket.

I am however looking forward to my future minication to Florida. I keep holding onto that