I'm still feeling quite positive, although I've got a few important tasks coming up that are making me worry and doubt my own ability. I need to ring the government and a few other agencies to try and get backing for a magazine I and a few others are starting up - and its a really nerve wracking thought! So much work has gone in to it already and I know there is soooo much more to do that its quite frightening me that I'll fail. My stomach is literally churning with the thought of making these calls, which I know is stupid because they can't hurt me, but I guess I'm afraid of making a fool out of myself.

Yesterday was really fun. Shopping went well and I bought some bright clothes that didn't completely swamp me, in particular this amazing fluffy bright pink cardigan, that just makes me feel cheerful when I wear it! It was great to have the chance to catch up with one of my best mates and talking to her always helps put things in perspective. She was celebrating her 1 year anniversary last night and she just helped me see that I need to put my trust in others again, that not every guy out there is just waiting for the chance to break my heart and you need to be positive to have positive things happen to you.

So, no more wallowing in bed for me...hopefully.