Sorry if the title of this blog has got anyone thinking I'm going to be talking about something cringe worthingly funny, but it's actually more about how I'm embarrassed by my personality. I know that's a really strange thing to say, but over the last couple of days I've been far more aware of how I act, rather than constantly obsessing about my mood.

I am a horrible person. Well, horrible isn't the right word but maybe bad. I care a lot about my friends and would do anything to help them, but I get so easily irritated by people that it makes me sick. I can't stop shaking and thinking about how irritated I am. And I really don't want t be. I can't seem to control how I feel.

This has all come to me because I've been falling out with the group I'm designing a magazine with. And I can totally understand why. I just don't think pretty much anything anyone else does is as good as what I do. And that is horrible, so maybe I am horrible. I don't know anymore.

It's like today, I got so irritated because we got a leak in our house and one of my housemates said he had noticed the leak when we first moved in and hadn't done anything about it. But it's not helping me being irritated about that so why cant I stop myself being angry at him?

I got irritated by some of my friends walking slowly. Just walking slowly. Why did that irritate me so much? Well as far as I could figure it out it was because I feel like I need to be rushing around the whole time so why should other people be allowed to walk slowly. Which I know is rediculous! So why can I not stop feeling like that?