hello im not all sure how blogging really works but i figured i would give it a try. i was feeling really down tonight and some how ran across this site. I tried  the chat room but it was too much for me . i really lack someone in my life i can really express myself freely with without scaring them away with my feelings or thoughts. I have to admit sometimes i scare myself. But i try hard to be okay but sometimes its not easy. Ive gone through so much. i knw i havent been through it all and most likely there is someone in way worse shape then me but im not happy wht so ever and all i want is to find myself again and be content with who i am...