Hey guys! So it's been a few days since I last blogged, but basically I've just been busy sorting a few things out for myself. One of those things is something I'm really happy to report. I am officially a student studying a Diploma in Building Design! I'm super excited about it because it's something I've always been interested in and I'm just happy that now I have something to look forward to. I don't know about you, maybe it's different for everyone, but something that always makes me feel motivated, happy and excited is when I know I have a goal to work to. I find it to be a good coping mechanism, something that can kind of distract you from thinking about the negatives and make you focus on the positives. Whether it be a job, form of study or anything you feel is exciting and important to you, I suggest that you try to find something that can distract you from the not so happy thoughts going through your mind.
since graduating high school I've realilsed how isolated I've become. As I don't get to see my friends every day like I used to I've become sad and felt quite lonely. School was always a happy place for me because it was where my social groups were formed and where they continued to blossom, so as you could imagine, leaving that comfort and familiar place was really difficult. To make matters worse, half way through my last year of school, I moved into a new house which was almost an hour away from my school, friends and other members of my family. While an hour doesn't seem that far, it was almost like living in a whole new state for me! I found that a lot of my friends became more distant and that fewer people were willing to come and visit me. This is when I started to slip into a bit of a state of depression. It got worse of course when I graduated.
So, what has this got to do with the new adventure I'm about to begin? Well, it's a way to assist me in forgetting about all that negative stuff. While a lot of my friends either had jobs or college lined up for after school, I did not, and this made me feel kind of useless. So, now that I too am officially enrolled as a student again, I kind of feel as though I'm back in the circle.
Trust me when I say that doing something like studying, working or volunteering somewhere can actually help with your mental state. Please give it a go, try something new, try something that will challenge you, it might just help!!
I'm a big believer in things happening for a reason. I know it's almost the most cliche thing that someone can ever tell another person, but I think it's true. I've seen many people around go through things and get through them. I've been through things and while I may not be completely through the though time, I'm definitely getting there. Challenges are given to those who can take it. Whatever you're going through, while it may suck and while it may seem completely unfair, it's challenging you for a reason! You can do this! Whatever you're going through, keep your chin up. Walk with your head held high and never, ever forget to smile. Think about the good times you've had with friends and family. Go back to a place that was a happy time for you. Do what you have to do in order to get through it. Just smile and think about something that made you happy. I know it may sound really silly, but just try it.
So, I thought to get things started, it would be appropriate to tell you a bit about myself. Well, my name is Courtney, I'm almost 19 years old and I'm from Sydney, Australia.
Basically, I started this blog because of two reasons. The first being that I have a lot on my mind and I'd like to be able to share that in a non-judgmental environment, but also because I suffer from a mild form of dpression and a pretty extreme form of anxiety.
I won't give you the entire background as to what has led me to the mental state I am currently in because that would take way too long, but I will tell you that I've been through a lot of negatives in my life and have recently realised that only I have control of making my life better.
If by creating this blog I can help others along the way, well then that's a bonus! I'm ready to open up the lid on this bottle of mine, ready to tell the world how I feel for once!