... a depression and anxiety blog and chat room community.

Bookmark and Share

Let it all out

21/08/13 | by chloegrayson [mail] | Categories: chloegrayson

My name is Chloe and I am a 15 year old teenager that is suffering with depression.

Unfortunately I don't have the guys to tell my parents that I am suffering depression. How do I know I have depression if I haven't told anyone? Well, I am always unhappy with something, the way my hair looks, my general appearance, or just life itself. I have never had suicidal thoughts, thankfully. But I have been thinking of self harming, and have done so on a couple of occasions. Nothing to and, just scratching and biting my arms and hands, then rubbing them so the marks go away quicker.

I am also scared that I am going to develop an eating disorder because I really hate eating. I don't know how to explain it other than I think of all the things I have done to make people unhappy, so I punish myself by not eating, even when I am in pain because I haven't ate, I just don't eat.

Every night is like a bad dream because I always want to cry, yet I can't because somhow I feel like I have let down my family, because they want a happy and funny little girl, but I don't always want their company because it makes me sadder to think that I am there wasting their time feeling unhappy and miserable, so. Literally live in my bedroom, only ever coming out to go to the bathroom or get a drink. Why am I always feeling lonely and miserable?

April 2019
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
 << <   > >>
  1 2 3 4 5 6
7 8 9 10 11 12 13
14 15 16 17 18 19 20
21 22 23 24 25 26 27
28 29 30        
Depression Blogs - Anxiety Blogs - Depression Chat Rooms - Anxiety Chat Rooms. (Click 'Customize' to personalize your blog.)

Search

Categories

XML Feeds

open source blog tool

Depression Blogs - Depression Journals - Anxiety Blogs - Anxiety Journals - Depression Chat Rooms - Anxiety Chat Rooms

Copyright 2010 www.depression-blogs-chat-rooms.org All rights reserved.