Clover

I am trying to keep finding a reason to wake up every day and smile. I am trying to find a reason to wake up at all. My father, who adopted me, passed away in 2012 and he was truly my everything - my father, mother, my bestfriend.

I feel lost and incomplete without him to talk to, go to for advice or simply sit in his company. He was the only person I ever really trusted completely.

I have tried to move on without him after his death. But each time I seem to be getting up, life's events knock me back down. If I wrote everything right now that is happening in my life it would sound like I am on a slide headed down fast. I feel like that way. I tried to write a sensible blog the other day but it disappeared off the screen. It was not likek this one; did not sound so desparate and dispairing.

Pray for me.