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So scared.


Permalink 11:58:25 am, by clover on grass Email , 162 words   English (US) latin1
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I am trying to keep finding a reason to wake up every day and smile. I am trying to find a reason to wake up at all. My father, who adopted me, passed away in 2012 and he was truly my everything - my father, mother, my bestfriend.

I feel lost and incomplete without him to talk to, go to for advice or simply sit in his company. He was the only person I ever really trusted completely.

I have tried to move on without him after his death. But each time I seem to be getting up, life's events knock me back down. If I wrote everything right now that is happening in my life it would sound like I am on a slide headed down fast. I feel like that way. I tried to write a sensible blog the other day but it disappeared off the screen. It was not likek this one; did not sound so desparate and dispairing.

Pray for me.

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Comment from: clover on grass [Member] Email
Thank you for leaving me a message. I feel alone. I don't want to be here anymore. But I am trying so hard to find a reason to stay. Everyday, I have to fight not to let the depression overtake me. I am crying as I type this. I have been fighting against depression on some level since age 14 and have fought and won to stay here. Right now, however, I have problem that I am not sure will work out. This problem is causing extreme anguish and worry, thus extreme depression.

Thank you again for caring.

02/05/15 @ 16:16

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