I'm a young artist, so I feel that my art is me.

But lately, I feel that my art is worthiless, therefore I am worthless.

I joined the devArt community a few years ago and i'm not very popular. The firends i did make over the years, i feel that they now ignore me. Their excuse is that they're too busy. Some i believe, becasue they do try to stay in contact with me, while otehrs, just flat out lie.

Those "friends" still socialize with other people. They still draw for other people. They run clubs for other people, encouragin events and chatrooms. It's jsut me they don't talk to because they prefer their "best friends" not their "friends".

Sad part is that I drew so many pictures for them. They hardly do any unless I ask.

devArt seems way to competitve and half of the most popular items are fan-based.

My art is 80% orinigal. and  when most of my art is overlooked for some crappy pikachu, i feel deeply hurt inside. I'm not very social, so I express myself through art. and when my art is turned down, I feel dead.

Today, I actually blocked a few users, but it hurts me since I still consider them my friends, even though they ignore me. Even if they don't purposely ignore me, I feel that they'll hate me in the end for blocking them.