Thanks Anne-Peneloppe and Amy, I have been feeling low this weekend and I needed someone to tell me to keep going on the lower dose of Paroxetine. I'm still feeling pretty rubbish today, I'm so tired and have a headache but I'm back home with my husband and that has cheered me up. I'm no good at saying how I feel and I wish I could write poetry, but I think I get better at writing every day. I feel recently that life speeds by and leaves me behind trying desperately trying to keep up. I'm starting my secondment next week and feel I have so much to do before then. I'm meeting my study group on Friday and I have done no research. I don't seem to recognise myself. I used to be super organised and dependable, now I'm disorganised and rely on others to bail me out. At least I have understanding friends. I know all this makes little sense but I'm trying to understand how I feel. I used to have social anxiety disorder (I'm not sure if it is a disorder or extreme shyness, but that's another blog) but since the medication this has got better so I wonder if the disorganization is partly due to this and partly due to the depression. I'll try sticking to the lower dose for a couple of weeks and see what happens.