I've not posted lately, but I've had a good week. After deciding to set myself small goals I've finished my presentations, tidied my huge pile of books and papers, and planned my revision for exams. The healthy eating goal and winding down before bed haven't been started yet, but I hope to work on the latter this week by planning to go to bed early. I absolutely love the hospital I'm at now and told one of the nurses this week that I didn't want to leave and go back to the old one! I'm sure it will have its fair share of problems but at least everyone is laid back and really care about each other. My new boss, let's call her Mary,is a lot more understanding about mental illness and illness generally. She suffers from Lupus which is an illness where the immune system attacks the body and causes scaring. I have to confess that this week has not been a complete bed of roses. I had a cold at the weekend and felt really low and cr*p. I couldn't work out why. I self harmed for the first and only time by scraping skin off my knee with a scalpel. The pain I felt matched the pain I could not feel in my head and distracted myself from it. I've had the scab all week to remind me how weak and silly I was doing it. I won't do it again. I had to write about it to get the confession out in the open. Today I will have a lovely relaxing bath and go to bed early.