Its 8 o clock on a saturday night. Im in my pjs watching pathetic love movies drinking on my own. And messaging randoms on nz dating.

Is this really what my life has become?

68 people on facebook and not a single person to talk to. I sent out a whole heap of invites for people to come have a movie night with me Or even go out I don't mind what it is I just NEED some friends.

Ive been along foir so long of my life Will i be forever?

Am i being dramatic. Becasue right it feels like nothing has gone right for a very LONG time.

Its my 20th birthday next month in over that year what have i achieved?

Ive broken up with the man i was engaged to.  Lost 3 jobs.

Tried to commit suicide

put on 20 kilos

wrecked my hair

Decided on nothing to do with my future

Right now i am feeling sooo useless. I really am struggling to find a way thorugh life right now