So, The one person out of my family that super supported me left me about a month or so ago( ex boyfriend )..and 3 weeks after we broke up he got a new girlfriend.I think that is just sad.

He is the type of person who always has to be doing something, always has to be somewhere, can never just relax or be alone, and i think the reason why he has a new gf and that he can't not be alone is because he cant stand to be alone with his own thoughts. I think that if he was ever alone he would truely feel so much guilt  and pain in himself that he wouldnt be able to live with himself anymore. Its just sad to know that someone has to be be doing somthing non-stop to be satisfied within themselves. Which is probably which our relationship did not work out , even though it was at least 2 years and 3 months that we had gone out.

 He is clingy, always needs to be with someone or his gf and i can be alone days upon days..Now this isn't the reason we broke up, but its safe to say since im writing on a depression blog that he broke up with me because im depressed, which is ALSOO sad :p and honestly cowardly...

He made large promises like marrying me, and always being there for me even if we broke up, and moving in together and we made tons of plans for after highschool, and he blew it all. not to say that i didnt effect him with this disease , because he kept repeating that he was losing himself, so instead of breaking up with me he cheated on me, danced with my friends, took a whole new route and became redicuously religeous and decided to take away all foreplay and sex, and it all went downhill from there. We both grew into different people, and i am somewhat glad we broke up, but i have never been so angry and hostile in my life when i found out he had a new gf.. its disrespectful and pittiful and i feel bad for him, because i on the otherhand can deal with my feelings and thoughts, and he just can't...." It's just sad".

Julia

Ever felt sad and couldn't eplain why? Everything is great in your life but you can't help but be sad all day everyday? Well, that's how i feel all the time. I've felt like this for 3 years now, but it only got serious in March of 2011. Currently I am seeing a physiciatrist and on my first anti-depressant medication, and soon i will be doing therapy, Oh did i mention im seventeen?.. Yeah, i'm seventeen and struggling with depression, and i have an anxiety disorder and i have had it since i was a baby. Although i had an anxiety disorder ever since ive been on this earth, i still had friends, and i still went to school, and did activities, and had a drive for life, Now on the otherhand , my friends have recently just completely upped and left my life, im not really in school that often and doing distance ed, but my boyfriend of 2 years is still around , and i am slowly getting better i guess.

My friends say i have no reason to be depressed, and that i dont deserve what my highschool is doing for me, and that im not going to graduate. Can anyone tell me what would posses someone you considered to be your friend to say something like this to you?..Well, it's safe to say i dont consider them friends anymore. When you're dealing with something like i am, you don't need people like that in your life, when you're trying to re-build yours. Its just sad to see the people who you thought cared about you just completely throw you to the curb like garbage..

Anyways, This blog thing is new to me, but i have a feeling im going to like it.