I never really wrote a blog before so forgive me if it's odd.

I guess I'll start with why I'm here. For a while I've had what feels like on and off depression but people tell me I'm just stressed or tired. But I've actually had thoughts of suicide and such. I jusst feel so alone and unloved. Sure I have one best friend and a few people to talk to but I still feel alone in this world. While everyone has someone that likes them, like crush-wise and such, I chase people away. Not on purpose, I guess people find me intimidating or annoying. I've lost many friends and I feel like I can't be with anyone. I also have a very low self-esteem.

I tried talking on one of the chatrooms but I was kind of ignored. I get ignored in 'real life' too.

Also, the people in this world are so rude and mean and I feel as though nice people hardly exist. I hate it so much that I don't want to put up with it anymore. I don't want to put up with anything anymore. I'm slowly going mad...