I've been in such a horrible mood today. I hate feeling as if nothing is right; or even if it feels right for perhaps a minute, or an hour, then starts to feel bad again. Of course I'm pelased to have my laptop back, although I still don't know how I'm… more »

My life needs to change drastically. I can't carry on existing in this way, I want, and need, something better. The catalyst has been the deteriorating state of my laptop. My one main source where I felt connected to everything, albeit in an extremely… more »

Sometimes I wonder if I should tell somebody exactly what happened on that night. From start to finish. Every single detail. Because I've never said it out loud before. I see everything, I see it all every single day, over and over, but actually saying i… more »

It's still so hard to keep up with the changes. Nicky is such a different person now, and it's difficult to accept that. I know that if I didn't though, I'd lose her altogether. I'd rather keep a piece of her, than nothing at all. I've never had a situ… more »

I've been exhausted today for no apparent reason. I can't wait for sleep, yet as usual, I await Monday morning with an anxious feeling in my stomach. That feeling isn't just reserved for the employed and the start of yet another working week; it's probab… more »

When I'm with him, I'm somebody else. I'm not damaged goods, I'm not 'getting over' anything, I can just be me. I don't have to pretend about anything, or hide my life or what I'm thinking. I've never experienced the way he treats me. Even Luke, who on t… more »