I am a mother, a girlfriend, a daughter, a sister, a colleague and I am a mess.

I know what the society expect of me as a mother, a girlfriend and as a daughter and sister. I also know that I fail in every aspect.

I'm a terrible mother. I yell at my son and have to send him to his grandparents when it becomes too much for me and I can't even protect my unborn child from a life with depression. As a parent I want to give my children a happy childhood. A childhood they can be proud of when they are older. My 3 year old son already know that mom sometimes can't take him to kindergarten because she is too sick to get out of bed. How can I be a good mother when I don't even are able to take my kid to kindergarten? How can I be a mother of two and give them a happy childhood when I can't even take care of myself.

I have the most amazing boyfriend that supports me..