Do u know how it feels on that moment when u notice that the person u thought was ure bestfriend has been lying to u for so long and that they dont really even want u around,but they dont have the guts to say it,,I've lost soooo many friends in the past 2months,it aint even funny,,I lost the 3girls that I called my besties,they just woke up one morning and decided they dont want me in their life anymore,that aint even so bad. . . U know we all have that one friend u trust with ur whole entire life! I had one,,I told him EVERYTHING,i trusted him,,he has been lying to me for sooo long and doesnt he doesnt want me around anymore,the moment I found out everything fell apart. . . After realizing life aint that bad,,I felt that I can try again,,I stood up out of the dirt and he was there for me,or so I thought. . . Do u know how it feels to lose the one and only one u trusted?? The only one who was actually realy there? The one who helped u love urself and make u feel good about urself? I dont have that persone anymore,,i cant face the world anymore. . .

Breaking Point: Have you ever started crying in front of you're parents? I did,we were in the kitchen and I was cleaning while my parents were cooking… It's like I could just feel everything I've been holding in,was bursting through my eyes,luckily there were onions in the pot being cooked,I had a excuse,at least for now… Everything you box in,trying to control,is going to burst out sometime,we just cant keep everything in and under control forever,well I cant,but I'm trying…

I am a weak person!!

I let people walk over me because I care too much for someone too fast,I'm always being forgotten and not cared about,I only have friends when someone needs something and when they need someone to be there,no one is ever there for me! I'm always stuck to listen to everyone else's problems,no one ever wants to listen to me...

I usualy keep things to myself and try to 'cut' away my problems,I've thought of suicide so many times before and tried it several times,trying to bleed to death...

No one likes me for who I am...

Is there anyone out there that feels the same?or am I just a social reject?