The fight within myself

My anxiety is my constant struggle . . . . the thoughts are overwhelming. The fears of something so little to someone else but so great to me.

I wake up and go about my day like everyone else, I laugh and joke around, I go to work, I have a family that cares about me and loves me, I have amazing friends that would do anything for me in a heart beat! But something inside me is just alittle diffrent from them . . . nothing noticable to the eye. No one would be able to point me out in a crowd and say "That one right there, she has depression and anxiety. She suffers from panic attacks". I am just like anyone else, but some don't think of it like that . . . . some believe that its all in my head, or it's because of something that i did to deserve this, some don't understand it and are affraid. And I want you to know, I understand . . . . you can't catch it like a cold, you don't need a HazMat suit to be near me, you don't need to walk on eggshells around me, I am the same as I have always been!!!!! Nothing has changed really, I still love the same, I still care!!!

Maybe that's a lot of my problem, I let what others think and say bother me to much. Some people are harsh in their words, and what may not hurt others hurts me. Some say I am to sensitive, that just means I care more and feel more, my heart is bigger! And I would rather it be to big than to small. But if you can not understand that, than there is no room for you in my life! If you find it hard to "handle" me at my worst, than there's the door! I don't need you nor want you. I have all the love and support I need!  I will get through this,  I will survive, I will not give in to the depression, I am worth it!

Lost in a wandering maze being a survivor!!!