Okay, so as of yet my plan has failed. Fortunately it has given me an aim right now, something that is usually lacking from my life. Although I havent found the right conditions to tell him everything, I have writen it all down. I could read it out to him if I wanted, however I feel that I probably won't be able to do that. It's not like I can slip it in his pocket and then run for the hills, he will obviously have questions. Whether I will be able to answer them I don't know.

Argh, am I over reacting? Theres still that thing in my mind saying don't be so stupid, this is your problem and you don't need to involve anyone else when I know that I should tell him.

Maybe that little niggling voice is right, I could just give up and go back to how it is normally and just stop kidding myself.

Or I could fight this, with him.