Right, so my dad decided to put on this 'lovely' film. This 'lovely' film contains pretty much everything that gives me the eebies, and well it triggered the fuck out of me. I dont usually swear/curse, so please forgive me for the minor outburst. I dont think there was a way to explain it well enough. Basically there was creepy dungeons, people being hung, dead bodies, dead bodies after being hung, dead bodies moving, etc... all of this in the first 10 minutes of the film. It was an hour or so before I was due to go to sleep, and after it was dark. I did try to sleep, but just lay there shaking and trying to calm down didnt really work, I put most of the tension and fear into my lower back for some reason, and it felt like absolute agony. So here I am trying to vent in a 'healthy way'. The reason why I have put paranoia in the title is because my dad put it on, after suggesting it, and when I tried my best not to freak out at dead bodies moving... He laughed. I think this is a plot to get me to crack/break down big time/go absolutely nuts, so that he has reason to call the police and have me committed. I keep wanting to call them on it. To say 'well call the fuckers and get them in here, in all their riot gear and stuff'. But I'm sure that would make me look more nuts, even if I was right. I really need to cut, but cant cos a)I'm here and I dont cut on respite, b)I have no dressings, and c)I dont have the black bag of doom, and d)the sheets are white! I have been DG'ing, but it hasnt quite worked as well as it used to. I'm really freaking out right now. There is the ring girl under the bed, so I cant pace, and each time the light goes off I see this creepy figure in the corner looking at me.

I now think that there is some sort of communicative device in the clock. The tick-tock noise turned more like chimes, for a few moments. Literally a few moments after my dad did an Elvis and 'left the building'. I'm sure they were trying to communicate with him. Oh, when they couldn't get in contact with him at the house... they sent a pigeon to watch me. Yes, a pigeon. I dont think pigeons are actually proper birds any more, there are certain ones that try to blend in with the other birds, but the shape is slightly different, and they look like their feathers have been painted. Those ones are robots, with cameras and other surveilance equipment. They also have odd behaviour. My dad asked me what I was going to be doing today and the rest of the time I was here, it was a heavy style convo, which surprised me. He can usually do light ones when asking that... but I think he is communicating that to the people watching me, as a kind of daily report. I think that they might have put a tiny camera behind where I usually sit and type to capture what I write here, and or the log in details. Also, the bird feeder in the garden's cap is off. I'm sure that this is a code to them for something. I dont know, maybe its my parents saying that they think I'm onto them. I dont know. Parents said that a squirrel removed the top. I doubt it because of how my parents ensure things are very secure. Next door had a gardener, I think that he is a surveilance person. When I mentionned that next door had a gardener he said 'no they have someone who does odd jobs for his pension and they work in their garden'. I'm sure that this is a code for something, or a signal to say that I had seen them. I know this because the person went out of view shortly after my dad had said this. I should tell the reason for the fact that my parents are doing visual codes, it is because the police surveilance team are nearby and can see the garden. My parents live near a police/ambulance storage place. I also keep thinking people are messing with my food, like my parents. I also think that they have a plot to kill me. The reason why I am not panicing about that is because I am also still suicidal. I keep using my DGC (Dressing Gown Cord) -I need to come up with a new name for it. Last night, I saw someone in my room watching me, I saw the whites of their eyes and they were smiling with their teeth showing. I did initially think that they were another hanging corpse... again, but no. I also knew that the ring girl was under the bed, waiting to grab my legs.

How the hell did they know this? This conspiracy is getting beyond a joke now. They wanted me out of the house with them, I think its so that the police people could get me and commit me because I was out of the house and acting strangely. Proof is that they knew that I was going to do the ironing for them as a surprise, so they did it whilst I was asleep or something, so that I would be unable to use that as an excuse to stay home. I did stay home, because I didnt know that they had done the ironing. They came in and out of the house several times. I think that this is a sign to the surveilance people in the van to call the plan off because I was not going. This proves that they are in on it, and therefore means that I cannot trust them. It hurts and upsets me, but I now cannot tell them anything. On another note, my dad keeps coughing and clearing his throat when I am out of the room/he thinks I am out of earshot. I think this is how he is communicating with the surveilance people. I do not know what he uses to contact them, or how he contacts them. I know he has changed the style of shirt, maybe this is to distract from the tiny communicative devices on his shirt. He has a polo shirt style top, I think that it might be hidden underneath a button, because the holes can be used to capture sound. Maybe they are the buttons themselves. The stripey pattern, I think could be used to hide the wires, because the hems are quite thick looking, like a channel for wires. Well, they hide them until they can be put under the collar of his shirt. My mum recently had dental surgery, on and off. I think therefore that she has had some sort of communicative implant put in there. I think that it is a kind of code, like morse code, because she presses on a certain spot at various times. Maybe some kind of pressure transmitter. My parents both check the doors and stuff, usually only one of them does it. But today both did it, in an odd way near the doors to the garden. I think they are signalling to the figure and the neighbour that is spying on me to keep a look out as they are going to go out without me.