I dont get people any more. I mean, I didnt before. I value trust, openness and honesty. Someone I thought was a friend has recently decided to hide things from me, ignore me and generally boot me almost entirely out of her life. I knew I was a fucking waste of space but please, just tell me. Type it to me, tell me. If you want to put a knife through me, I would be more than willing, but please just tell me. If you want to talk to me, please do. Please just send a text, a message over fb. If you read this still, then know I do want you as a friend. I just paniced and freaked out that night. I guess I'm reading things wrong. What started this blog entry off, was mainly because I am totally fucked up. I cannot pretend otherwise any more. I mean, I could not physically unlock the door to let the cat out. I think the cat has now threw up somewhere now. I hate this country with its stupid laws about not selling firearms and live ammunition!