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Rememberance Day

Everyday I wake up wanting to kill myself and unmotivated to get out of bed. The words are so powerful that my heart aches.

Today I get to remember the soldiers that fought for their country in WW1 and WW2. They sacrificed their life so we can have a free country.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. There is so many treasures in life that are worth living for.

 

Cream Colored ponies and crisp apple strudels

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Beautiful rainbows and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things
 
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels.
Door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Location: The Lake

 

In the mist of emptiness, drowning  into a whirl pool  i see a  faint light in the distance.
I went home for a couple days to the lake to get my wisdom teeth taken and to take in my last let down. I held my head high at my daddy's office as everyone asked if i was married and if i was done school and working. Instead of celebrating graduation of school, i was disapointed in my self .Avoiding life by staying in bed for endless hours. Eating ice cream bars night and day. Avoiding current ambitions.
I was devestated when I found out I did not get a job I had applied for. I did my practicum there, put my heart and soul seeing patients, went to a conference and met several people from the company and named cookies after my placement. 7 other students got the job.  Eager beaver turned into a soggy mess.
After sleeping the whole day (resting from the wisdom  teeth pull out), I sat down at the grand piano. The grand piano overlooked the lake. I could see the autumn sun reflecting on the water and leaves silently falling from the ceder trees. I  grabbed a couple piano books, sat down and played a note ......and played another note. I started singing while playing songs from the 90's:  Jewel, Sarah McLachlan, Romeo and Juliet. Then I sat down with my mom and started singing songs from "Sound of Music` Singing, dancing and piano sends endorphins through my body. Gives me  a moment of joy and happiness.
I am going to start enjoying the simple pleasures of life.
- PinkiePie

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