Sometimes....
When it rains it pours. THe a/c on my car went out...I live in TX, it was 109 yesterday and 105 today. Need I say more? My car is also out of alignment and I don't have the money to fix that either. It's a 19 year old car.
I hate that I feel suicidal because I am running out of money and see no way to get any. I just don't think I'm gonna be able to find work, and if I do, to keep the job. I've been feeling way down and upset and hopeless and it seems knocking myself off is the only thing that I can do. Funny thing is, I don't even want to die. There were times in the past I certainly wanted the pain to stop, but now I don't want to die. I just can't figure out how to afford to live. I can't give up disability and Sec 8.....I couldn't make enough money to survive.
What in the hell am I going to do?