mntstar's mind

The sky

Once full of light like the sun

Now a spinning black hole

My mind the same

The will to live fading

Like the evening glow

Soon it will be gone

The will to live

Th power to resist the darkness

To be free of problems

To get out of bed: a struggle to stand

To look after my brother, helpless

Helpless to do anything except die

Would it hurt?

Would it feel like heaven?

Would I finally be free?

Of pain?

Of hurt?

I begin to cut

To assure myself that I can still feel

Sometimes,

I feel dead

And wish it was true

I fade at school

No friends, they all left

Depresstion

Grades falling

To fade

To forget

To be happy, for a short time

Like drugs

It's a deadly cycle

Want

Eat

Want

Eat

It never stops