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09/04/12

Permalink 03:23:55 pm by RECOV, Categories: recov111

Me

I come hear today as I think that having a outlet to let me feelings go may do me some good. I have been writing my feelings down for some time now but ended up with bits of paper all around the house and some very good evidence of my wows on the computer.

Well I little about me. I am a graduate who graduated in 2008  Ido not have a career, but still working my part time job from uni I am still single and by all means have very little friends now compaired to the small circle of friends which I cherished though university.. I now know I have suffered from depression my whole life but I never really realised what the cause of this was however discovering I had very bad dyslexia and dyspraxia when I was 21 made a lot more sence to me.

I know I can be very down on my self and suffer from low self confidence and lack of positivity is something I transmit to others when I am not happy aboout something. Some times I go the other way where I feel very self confident and even go as far as to work really hard and become obsessed with getting things right . Also going out and partying and having fun is also something I do well. I also have difficultiy in understanding others communication and find it hard to pick up on small verbal clues people give, often meaning I can not understand the gist of what people are trying to do and start taking it personally. I also have a really bad short term memory which never helps much in terms of work and organisation skills. I constantly get things wrong as I have little attention to detail.

Some people I talk to though seem to think I have a lot to offer. I have my own rented place, Own car and a full time job.   . I am told I am very good looking and never have trouble finding a date. However do have trouble keeping them interested beyond the 3rd date. I also have a good mum and dad who are there for me always and who I spend time with regularly. I do have one social activity which involves keeping fit but even after 2 years I struggle to feel at ease with in terms of socialising it still seems a bit of a struggle to do.

 

There are a few major things that has happened in my past which has effected the person I am today.. Firstly there is bullying when I was younger by older kids at school. Then there was bullying again at work in my first job when leaving uni. This lasted about two year and completly destroyed who I was This has also taken me to two years to get over. Lastly there was the boyfriend who cut me off for 3 years from having any kind of social life which I did get back when we split up.

 

Thats about all for me for today. Think I feel better already.

 

Quote one: the only failer in life is not to try

 

 

 

 

1 comment

Comment from: disgraceful [Member] Email
Glad blogging made you feel better! I did my first one a few days ago just about to do another, it's good!
You sound really similar to me, apart from I haven't graduated yet (nightmare!). Its good to hear that you do have a social activity, don't give it up no matter how uneasy it makes you feel!And that you got your social life back, well done! I just hope you keep up the recovery, hope is all we have! x
09/04/12 @ 20:04

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