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I'm hoping you guy's will understand this.

How do I even start. My name is Sasha, my goal here is to find and talk to people that just get it..understand that feeling in your clouded mind of confusion, not even knowing what your confused about. I hear and see people saying 'OH MY GOD IDK WHAT TO DO WITH MY LYFE IM SO DEPRESSED IM GOING NOWHERE', while I'm sitting here thinking to myself, these people ARE eventually going to have life's and I find it quite stupid of them to even be thinking that their genuinely depressed, and ACTUALLY thinking that their going nowhere in life, because deep down they know for a fact their gonna have a life one day.

I don't see myself as one of these people. While people are worrying about things in reality, I'm worrying about how wrapped up I am in my own mind. Things that are important to some people, I don't even think about or care. I have an obsession with death. I'm not suicidal, I just have that feeling of not wanting to exist, just want to be in a dark place, quiet, warm, peaceful, no one else just me, no worries of any kind. Usually when I go into these types of spells of just thinking about this stuff, time is non existent, a month seems like a day, a day seems like a couple seconds. It's actually really overwhelming, once I snap out of it for a little I realize I've done nothing with my life and I start realizing all the responsibilities I have to own up to and that's when I simply switch, and I'm right back where I started..wrapped in an never ending thought in my mind.

I don't know if this makes any sense, but I just needed to explain as best as possible to people. Actually, this is the first time I've ever explained how I truly felt.

Thankyou to anyone that took the time to read this.

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