Hi my name is Stephanie and I have been struggling with depression/anxiety since I was young. I am now in college and it's really been getting harder to deal with. I just want to be normal and happy but I feel like i have missed out on so much because I am worried or upset a lot of the time. My best friend constantly helps me and tries to make me feel better but no matter how many times she tells me I am good enough I just do not believe it. I have always just had this feeling that something is inherently wrong with me and I do not fit in. I am not sure where this feeling came from because noone has every told me I am not good enough. Even so, it is still in my head and I cannot get over it. I have good friends and family and I am doing well in school. I don't know why this happened to me I do  not understand where it came from and I am trying to work through it and so far it has worked. When I am happy everything is great and then all of a sudden I just go into a spout of anxiety which leads to depression like right now. I can't deal with this just happening all the time, I have finals right now and Christmas is coming. It just makes me afraid to think when the next time this will happen again. I wish the problem would jsut go away so I could be happy with the good life I have. Well I guess that is about it for today.