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sissylynn2478

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Quite pain

02/03/14

01:42:50 pm Permalink Quite pain

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My husband is less than three feet from me and has no idea that I hurt. He has already seen my crying today but he hadto work a double last night so he is no asleep. He is a really great husband, putting me through college, working doubles, he tells me heloves me everyday. I cant tell him I think that I have depression. It seems obsurd for me someone who hasnt had to work in over a year, who gets good grades, smiles for every picture, with friends and family who love me to be even remotely sad let alone depressed. I don't deserve to show that I'm hurting on the inside, its not like bad things happen to me. Im normal people have it much worse than me and are greatful what right do I have to even cry. So I'm here to look for help from stranger that can never know who I am, so that they can never judge me for being so ungreatful.

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Comment from: fuserche [Member]
02/05/14 @ 15:50
Hey I know how you feel. I feel guilty about my depression all the time. My life is a pretty good life when I look at it, and I people would kill to have my life. But I am still depressed and I feel horribly guilty sometimes. You just have to remember that depression is an illness just like cancer or any other horrible disease it isn't your fault that your sick it just happens. So you shouldn't feel down on yourself. You shouldn't feel guilty or ungrateful because those feelings are just the depression telling you that. And I don't want to tell you want to do it is your life but your husband sounds like a wonderful man. You should consider telling him that you're depressed he could maybe help you. And I know I am a total stranger but if you can't talk to him, message me. I am trying to get through depression myself and know how it feels. Anyways I hope you have better days ahead :)
Comment from: patchuli [Member]
02/06/14 @ 02:10
We are here for you, don't feel badly about feeling the way you do!

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