Aaron-

Do you think that I do it because i'm bored? Because I don't. I don't know why I do. But that's not why. I wish I knew. Everyone keeps asking why. they think I just don't want to tell them. But the truth is I don't have an answer. And because I don't have an answer, I can't talk. And becuase I can't talk, they're going to give up on me. Just like everyone always had. Because i can't be fixed. Ever. I'll always be broken. And there's nothing that anyone in the world can do about it. And I hate that.

i just signed on here to say what my day was like and how im doing. now im here and i realize......i have nothing to say. shows how great my life is.

it went back to normal. and im still depressed. ive been depressed for about two weeks now. thats the longest ive ever been depressed all at once. i didnt sleep at all last night. and something tells me im not gonna be sleeping tonight either. god i hate my life. i wish........i wish i could escape. i wish i could just get away from here and start over, different place, different time, different people. but wishing's really overrated. wishes never come true. they never did. and they never will. at least not for me.

2:08am. cant sleep. dont wanna go to school tomorrow. what if it all goes back to normal? it wouldnt surprise me. it always does in the end. i dont want it to though. im scared that it will. i came out and went against everything ive ever known. i dont know if i can take it if it turns out to be all for nothing.

10 minutes

Its too long

Let me out now

9 minutes

I can't take it

I need to go

8 minutes

They refer to me

As "she" or "her"

Like I can't hear them

i hate them

7 minutes

Let me out of this cage

Stop this torture

6 minutes

I need out

Now

5 minutes

I wish I could just dissapear

Evaporate into the air

4 minutes

God I need to get away

It's just too damn quiet

3 minutes

So close

Almost there

2 minutes

I can't do this

I don't know if I can make it

1 minutes

I told him

I can't believe I told him

Take that bitch

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I'm gone