Life is a constant battle these days. I hate it. Im getting involved with the wrong things and hiding more and more from my parents. My mum claims to not know who I am anymore. My depression is getting better but I havent been sleeping, I used to wake up at particular hours in the night but now ive had about 12 hours sleep in the past 4 days.

I always feel like somethings missing from my life. I mean I SHOULD be happy. I have family, freinds, and a serious relationship. It feels like I have everything I need.

I remember how early I developed depression, and I would hate anyother person to go throught it at that age.

I feel like im  abusing my life sometime, like I want more and more from it but I feel like I have nothing. Sometimes I still cut now and then and it never makes things better even though I think that at the time. I've been to months of councilling but not long ago I stopped going.

My counciller always thought my depression was linked to me not eating breakfast, but its still there even when I do.

Nobody knows how bad i want to be normal. To enjoy life everyday. To have gone through a life without teasing and depression. Without  cutting and being suicidal. I wish I could just rewind sometimes :/

Karissa,