I miss my mom so much, it's not even funny. Right now I live with a foster family and they're great and all, but I just  want to go with my mom. She's such a big influence in my life and I would do anything just to live with her. I haven't seen her for 3 years till last Friday, cause then is when I went with her to spend 5 days at her house. I got home today and couldn't help but feel so emotional, I cried and slept. I still feel broken on the inside and there's is nothing I can do to stop it.

How am I supposed to be with her, but not hurt my foster parents feelings at  the same time? Screwf my life. This sucks.